A new Theory

I know that I've been honest, and perhaps a little too much so in explaining my 23-year old theory on women, but as the human condition has it... I have yet another theory to touch upon. It's a bit raw, but it has to do with a currently emerging situation. I was having dinner with my wife when I realized that she was crying after a bunch of what I was saying - and mind you none of it was bad news. Hormones! that's the way so much of the world would describe it - and her too. It's that taboo thing for guys to mention, but it definitely affects us at least slightly every month...

My theory is that it's the way we were designed. With every month that passes, so does the chance of motherhood and the potential of bringing life into the world - thus our bodies tell women to mini-mourn, and it's a fight to not get or remain depressed. I'm not sure why God made people this way, but it definitely helped me to think of emotional fluctuations in this way.

The news I was sharing with her was the possibility of serving the Church body in a more prominent position and be a team-lead, known as elders in other churches. I know that I have to "hunker down" and pray my heart out about this situation, and I'm left really lost. I'm lost wondering just how to make a move... I'm wondering all of the implications, responsibility, and added pressure -- and I know that it's wrong. I know that I must ask to have all of my hesitations removed, all sense of logical thinking - and ask for Him, His will, and pray for the revelation of His desire of what choice to make.

Prayer is not overcoming God's reluctance. It is laying hold of God's willingness.
George Mueller